-Wednesday, April 01, 2009-Wednesday, April 01, 2009 Y
I wonder will I ever update my blog once a yr?
We shall see..
Today was an interesting day for me.
I actuali drove a car at Tampines Ave 10 in the lorry parking space.
It was rather funny since its super horrible at the same time.
Didnt take any pic.
Even if there is a vid, nd to do some 'adjustment' to it.
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Some personal views from me:
I was very fascinated with this quiz from facebook.
Nurhafizah completed the quiz "
Enneagram Quiz" with the result
Type five.You are type five. Your vice is avarice. You are a very private person who is very sensitive to intrusion. You tend to feel detached from others, holding back out of a fear of not having enough resources to deal with life. You are capable of great concentration and intellectual accomplishment, but fear of engulfment and postponement of action can make it difficult for you to mobilize yourself into action..
Avarice.
Insatiable greed for riches.
Greed is a very strong word.
Supported by an even stronger word; insatiable.
There are certain reasons as to why we become that way I guess.
However I have my own point of view.
There shud not be any reasons for that.
Practicality and rationality show it all.
I believe that we control our own life.
Whether we succeed or fail, only God knows.
But because we have brains, it becomes a 2nd nature to us to respond to the success or failure.
We choose. Allah decides.
One thing for sure, all goods things come from Allah.
Bad things come from us.
Do you even believe in intuition?
The time when our heart beats very fast.
And we feel guilty somehow.
Or the opposite.
When you feel good, you think that u have found the solution to your so-called problems.
I am thankful that I was born the way I am.
As a muslimah.
As a bright student.
As a respected adult.
As someone who is known to have her life filled with happiness.
But I know something's amiss.
Again, intuition.
I am someone who act out as somebody else.
I am critical at times.
But it is just to point out wad I tink is more appropriate.
Deep down inside, I juz want something reali easy-going.
If possible, I want a laidback environment where people stop mourning over their life.
And wad's important, I want solutions not complaints.
So I can have a serene mind.
Intellectual.
People perceive me as an intellectual person.
But no I'm not.
I tend to think deeper only.
I strongly believe in strategic thinking.
Or easier phrase, think before you speak.
Strategic thinking is something we shud inculcate into our culture, our life.
Juz bcos I own this belief, there is nothing to feel intimidated of.
Why?
A deep confession to be made.
I was once felt intimidated by those people.
They speak as if they own the world.
They speak as if they're the elitists.
They speak as if noone below them ever thot of something philosophical.
But that is all in the past.
People see me as aggressive, ambitious, smart.
Truthfully speaking.
I am none of the above.
Aggressiveness.
I'm not aggressive.
I prefer the art rather than the defence of a martial art.
Why I like ninjutsu so much?
It is close to nature.
It made us appreciate the strength of Earth.
And the vulnerability of humans.
Making use of your surroundings for defence.
Ambitious.
Let me tell you how far I am from being ambitious.
My dream is to travel around the world.
True.
But not because of some company wanting me to be their embassodor.
Rather, to appreciate the different culture, lifestyle and even environment.
I used, and still do dream about travelling around the world to look out for natural sceneries.
Finland.
Aurora borealis.
The northern lights.
New Zealand.
The green pastures.
Smart.
My academic results aren't fantastic.
I am not studious.
I am far away from achieving wad people tink I shud.
Not that I am accommodating to other people's paradigm of life.
I tink there's a need to achieve things like degree or any higher institutions.
Again my bad pointer is dat I take no risk.
I can but I have my own fears.
Which most would have oredi guessed.
All of these made me realise that I have many flaws.
To my actions.
Beliefs.
And even perceptions.
However,
I am determined to continue with life like everyone else does.
To be fearless of everything ahead of us.
Even mistakes.
We have made our choices.
Now we shall see the outcomes.
May be depressive.
Again, it is in our nature to move on to the next big thing of our life.
P.S.: Not everyday I can come out with such a thought.